The OUR BOOK

nampak tak ni?
let's just zoom it in a little,


there. see it?
This is a book. It's not just ANY book, it's the OUR BOOK. the title, the whole cover of the page was handmade by my best friend in high school, Aliaa Syamim.
It contains most of our (Aliaa, Shafina and I) thoughts and feelings during our last 3 years in high school (2006-2008). banyak gila drawings, illustrating our thoughts and feelings dalam ni. hehe.
This book actually started off as a tool to avoid being caught in class for not bringing our exercise books during whatever period. (nak cover line la kira) haha i remember those days.
during form3, Aliaa, Shafina and I were almost inseparable. I was a new girl at SMKJ4, Aliaa and Shafina mmg dah rapat since form 1. Aliaa was the paranoid one, Shafina was the talkative one, and I was well, in love with myself.haha
we became really close friends.
we talked about EVERYTHING. Boys we were in love with, teachers we couldn't stand, and how EVERYBODY hated Linkham! (omg kenapa aku boleh teringat tu hahahahahahaha)
so whenever we're not together, and we had things to scream or laugh or cry about, we write it down in this OUR BOOK. so that we could feel like we're not going through life alone, and that we have our friends around us.

However, as the years went by, kami menjadi sibuk, and we had less time to spend on the book. We also had other friends. and then by the end of 2008, high school ended, i was already hanging out with different people, Aliaa and Shafina were probably more comfortable that way. I guess we were growing apart. when 2009 started, we still met each other, but VEEEERY VEEERY seldom. we had fewer things to talk about, since all of us were going separate ways. Shafina was already in college, Aliaa was going to leave for Johor, and the rest went to Melaka, Pahang, Perlis, merata2 lah ! so that was pretty much the end of the 3 years, the end of the our book, and our close friendship. we just don't call, don't text and no, we don't meet up anymore. i have absolutely no idea why. 3 years of friendship gone, just like that.
sad sad case, i know.

i'm just gonna take this from the book,
on the 24th of July 2007, at 11pm, i wrote

"Aliaa, Shafina, i don't care if you people think i'm annoying, I STILL LOVE YOU. very much. Thanks for making it easy for me to fit in here. I hope we'll stay friends forever, I won't let anything come between our friendship."

well, if either one of you are reading this, i just want you guys to know that, i still feel the same way. i still love the both of you, and i miss our times together back in high school. I'm sorry kalau ada misunderstanding between us, rasa menyampah dan sebagainya. i wish i could make things better.

ok lah. tu ja nak luahkan. i've had this kept in me for sooo long. nasib baik ada blogspot :D
btw, my dear friend from uitm, Hawa Malik, just turned 18 on Sept 5th. The dinner was great Hawa! Pgee and I had lots of fun. thank you so much, and again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING !
wish you all the best !

ok i'm gonna check on what my Fizree is up to right now. nanti kalau aku rasa emo lagi, aku tulis lagi ok.
toodles.